会有多难过等明天再说

Yesterday incident was another shattering blow .

2011-02-17T17:39:00.005+08:00

When we intend to do good, we do & when we intend to do harm, it happens .

Certain people have a way of saying things (even when the words may not seem harsh or offensive) / actions that shake us at the core .

Our story , you can bend it & twist it , you can misuse & abuse it .

No matter how similar , even god can't change the truth .

What's your intention ? Your day is gone face the facts !

This is pathetic , it's as though as I have been charged with crimes that I did not commit .

"A men are respectable only as they respect "

I want to be treated like an adult , respected as a human being .

I don't wish to elaborate what really happen , as I'm not suppose to , so as the matter it's over anyway . &Of course it still couldn't change how it has affected me as I'm innocent ~

I feel great that now on I can handle things on my own , at the same time I blame myself for losing control of my tears because I feel threatened .

I couldn't handle pressure , like a bipolar .

Because of what happen yesterday I couldn't keep up with the notes & stuff !

Somehow lost interest in it .. I feel hopeless ,

it's too much for me to take ..

I work really hard for these , I really love the lessons & stuff I learned .

Why is it so hard for people to just LISTEN before they start being so judgmental ?

If anyone ask how am I , I would always say I'm fine .

Would anyone ask are you alright ? They dint bother , cuz' they don't really care .

They just ask for the sake of asking .

2010-12-22T23:19:00.006+08:00

It's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this ,
I don't know how should I feel or what that I should say .

A person ,
someone that breathe , speaks , listen , laugh , cry , hates , loves , hurt , eat , walk , jump , run , wish , pray ..
So & so , his heart just stop tonight .. & gone .

Human body is just temporary , so where does this person you loves go ?

Cherish people , everyday , every mintutes , every seconds counts .

2010-12-21T23:30:00.010+08:00

Although during those days in secondary somehow sucked ,

Still , these are the people trying to make it better ..

Thank you for every supports & encouragements throughout these years , sadly nobody can change me .

This is the way I'm ,
whether I have been taken for granted ,
whether how many troubles I got myself into for others ,
it doesn't seems it's all worth it though ,
Oh well , everyone makes mistakes therefor there's this day I did this

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Always reminding myself to Forgive & Forget .

Thank you dear friend & teachers ;

Teenage Dream

2010-11-06T19:42:00.003+08:00

I remember how we girls date . .

I remember how crazy we get when we're out . .

I remember how much time & effort we put in this room . .

I enjoyed having lunch together , like a family . .

How much we all loves COLA !

How ugly we were , no matter how much money we spend dressing up in Bugis Street . .

How HEELS gave us HELL .

& How humiliated I felt when my very best friend has all the good genes . .

How my silly girls got themselves FAMOUS over a sugar . .

How cork can my display picture used to be . .

How we used to find it chio . .

This is who I turn out to be when I'm with all of you . .

Uhems , I'm not the only crazy one . .

That's not it .

When we were younger , uglier & slimmer . .

*Fuck all of the 'Pink Sockings' comments , I LOVE IT (Y)

I don't change much , have I ?

My apologies for the photo quality -.-

Although , most of us have drifted . . I believe we all do miss those years .

There's not much to say , those pictures & every moment we all shared are dear .
Friends comes & go , we been thru lots of laughter & tears ,
I won't denied that there are times I disliked a few of you so & so ..
oh well , I understand no one is perfect ~
I'm happy that all these years you guys were all there for me whenever I needed you & forgive each others mistakes .

But there are times ENOUGH IS ENOUGH , referring to someone 'you know who' .
I wish she get this message , because I'm sick of chasing after her shit , just finish things smoothly & you don't even need to hear from me anymore .

I wish everyone all the best in their future , of course if there's anything just ring me up !

As you can see , most of the parents always thinks that all of us are bad influence ,
but what they do not know is that all we want is someone to understand us , listen to us , be there for us , even though things that we did may be wrong instead of punishment we'd like you to be our friend to share with us your experience & lead us to the right way .
Being a teenager , we always screwed our life cuz' no one teach us to take care of ourselves , just like being a mother no one teach you to take care of your child , just like being a father no one teach you to cope with such responsibility .
Using violence or abusing your authorities we only will walk away from you , not listening to you nor understands you , just like your spouse cheats on you & you know well enough you're done .
As for us , it's different case cuz' we couldn't support ourselves .

I'm glad that since young my mom always tells me to 'Think before you do' although I may did something real bad that's because I always have ways to cover my backside ! Be smart .
I really enjoy very much being bad , to be honest , who doesn't ? (:

& Finally NORTH VISTA SECONDARY sucks to the coreeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (:
Activities SUCK(S) , Uniform SUCK-ER, Disciplinary management SUCK-EST , Teachers - Lagi worst , speechless .
So whoever passed-by that considering to opp for that school , please change your mind right away !!

Goodnight dear readers (:

Another promise another sin .

2010-09-21T15:39:00.001+08:00

I always pray that someday I'll meet my angel ,
& begin my love story like the romance drama .

& Finally I'd thought I found him ,
He's incredible , romantic , understanding
He respects my space ,
He gave me roses ,
He cooks for me ,
He sing me to sleep ,
He were my eyes when I couldn't see in the dark ,
He hugs me thru the night ,
He kiss me thru the phone ,
He tells me he loves me every time ,
He makes me candles ,
He walk with me through every obstacles & gave me every support I needed ,
He saw the best there was in me ,
I had all his love & I'm grateful for all the joy he brought into my life ,
I love the way he close his eyes , his lashes against mine ,
Through every lies he is the truth & I couldn't ask for anything better ~

We said we will never leave , I said it must be fate .

Right now I'm losing words for you , my angel .
At this moment what else have you not said ?
Could we fix what you broke ?

I tried to ignore how it felt , what I knew, still , I could never stop this feeling .
I wasn't looking for this , now , you took away all of my hopes & desires .
We can't get back like before cuz' I'm afraid that my emotions would be out of control .
My heart feels as if it is being rip apart, tell me how to stop this feelings .

My vision are blurred , I try to hold my tears off & dare not let it drop .
I couldn't find anyone to understand the torture of this emptiness .
I fall in love several times but happiness never stays ~
Memories are still swirling , when I woke up from my dream, I wonder what is left ,
realizing the happiness I want disappeared .

Guess we're both tired ~

Now that I have chosen to accept knowing that there's no turning back ,
be it silly or stupid whatever they called .
I need to fight this , I have to make it right for the wrong that he has done .
Regardless of whatever outcome would it be , at least I did my part .
Everyone makes mistakes , we should forgive & forget .